I (we) have a burning desire to be significant as a human. Maybe not everyone has it, I do. By time I’ve realized this pleasure is pretty hard to achieve. The bar is too high.
can you be happy if you’re significant? we know a lot of people who were so significant to society but not happy. Tesla struggled with business acumen and was often outmaneuvered by profit-driven contemporaries. He spent his final decades living in a series of New York hotels, steadily running out of money while working on increasingly eccentric, unfunded projects. He died practically penniless and alone in his room at the New Yorker Hotel in 1943. Van Gogh is one of the most famous and influential figures in the history of Western art. His expressive use of color and bold brushwork profoundly impacted expressionism and the trajectory of modern art. His life was filled with severe poverty, malnutrition, and worsening mental health crises. He sold only one painting during his lifetime and spent his final years considering himself an absolute failure. He died by suicide at the age of 37 in 1890, entirely unaware of the immense legacy he would leave behind. there’s one more: The theoretical father of computer science and artificial intelligence, Turing’s work in cracking the Enigma code during World War II arguably shortened the conflict by years and saved millions of lives. His concept of the “Universal Turing Machine” laid the foundation for all modern computing. In 1952, Turing was prosecuted by the British government for homosexual acts. To avoid prison, he accepted chemical castration, which severely impacted his physical and mental health. Stripped of his security clearance and treated as a criminal by the country he helped save, Turing died in 1954 from cyanide poisoning. An inquest ruled it a suicide. All of these “significant” people died, a catastrophic death. They didn’t know what they “left” behind.
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